Tuesday, 21 February 2017

The wait

It seems like a mean joke when poverty and hunger are a part of the wait,
for the graduate who preserved and endured
and succeeded with a big fat student loan that awaits.
And then I begin to hate saying such as, "Patience is the essence of virtue."
How can I stay true when the devil allures while I wait and knock on the heavens doors.
I pray, I beg, I cry, for tender mercies, loving kindness,
while them who think not of God prosper.
As if God finds pleasure in his children suffering,
because the devil is pursuing with all his strength and might,
I might as well wait as ma baby in it's it's mothers arms, while I wait.
What do you expect from the orphan who searches high and low for love but wakes up in a nightmare of domestic abuse in front of her babies eyes. Is it a unsuccessful wait or karmic fate, for her who lives her whole life under a grey cloud.
I read the bible and I saw Gods ego , when he allowed his most devoted servant be tested just so he can have the upper hand from Satan.
So I tore my bible to pieces as my patience was keeping me too stagnant and I was sinking in the
sand of my own preaching as the devil was reaching out more than I was reaching out to God. How much longer can I wait.....

Remaining at peace as another piece of nature in Gods hands.